♫ Quixotic World ♪

Pathetic.. Yeah that's all.. My first love didn't end up well. I've never experienced a serious relationship. My first dating is when I was in 6th grade.. LOL..



There was a guy -initial F- wanted to be with my friend.. So...he dumped me.. Can you imagine a 6th grade boy could do such a thing..? The worse is F was finally with my friend and he's not the only one to be with Y.. Y had 2 boyfriends at the same time..! F didn't mind to be the second.. Y said that she just couldn't choose.. Awwww~
Come to think of it, she was so evil right..?? Hahaha..
I was so sad and felt like humiliated.. But.. I was sooo stupid at that moment.. I call it a sudden-broken..


Then, when I was in 11th grade I met a guy.. We knew we were in love but we just couldn't work it out cuz we had some reasons to not to be in relationship.. So far, he's the one whom I feel most comfortably talk with cuz we have the same interests.. We're still good friends even though our journey was like telenovela.. hahahaha..
It's good to know someone like him..


The other guys were just a simple crush.. But I think I felt so much deeply in love was twice.. After that, I feel umm..not really confident about myself to be in relationship.. I have soooooooooooo many inferiority.. And the other guys at my age don't seek a girl like me.. 
They just come and gone as they wanted to.. That's why I call myself pathetic..

I don't put THAT high standard to a guy.. I just want someone who can accept me the way I am.. Someone who doesn't have to be perfect..so we can fill each other's weaknesses.. But of course it will be good if we have the same interest.. I don't wanna call it type or whatever.. Love can't be measured by anything.. It just flows from your heart, right..?




Yeah maybe "I'm not lost.. Just undiscovered.." just like James Morrisson said..